Family

My mother had a tree decorating decorating party last night. It was a sweet idea.




The issue was my son and nephew (both seven) were so keyed up (for the Holidays, because it was the end of a long week, because the are both seven years old) that they were banshees.

In order to provide some peace and quiet, I told them that I would take them for a walk.

As we were walking around the ponds in my mother's complex, I looked up and saw adults having a nice cocktail party going on in another apartment.

It made me feel sad for a moment. THAT is what I should have been doing! That is what my life is (or so I thought) and when I got back to my mom's, my mood had changed and I wasn't able to deal with the hyperactivity of two normal healthy seven year olds at this time of year.

I may have snapped at TEA.

I may have been that dad that I never wanted to be.

I was sad about being a dad.

As a consequence, I wasn't able to fall asleep until 4:30.

Everything was moving through my head...what is my life? What do I want?

When I awoke, I made coffee and breakfast and I was still feeling off...and then I looked at my walls, and my the door of my fridge.


I am a parent, and I am a dad, and I need to understand that. The only thing that really matters in my life is my son, and maybe I have to remember that more often.

So, TEA, who doesn't read this, I am sorry and I will try to do better.

More Happiness

When you, Rachel, use the term "white hot fail" to describe a climate change denying Senator, you make me very very happy.

Pictures from the ASCA Holiday Concert

Waiting for the show...



The Wrongly Excited Gingerbread Man



TEA and classmates singing (they are dressed as Holiday Shoppers, and natch, TEA is carrying a Starbucks bag)

He looked at me this morning...

When I went to take him for a walk as if I were trying to convince him to walk into a freezer.

While I am doing chores, he is content to just sleep and relax...




I often wish that I led the life my dog does...of wait...I kind of do.

Oh, Albany!

Yes, it is very cold.





Please stop whining about it.

My Favorite Things

Starting my day with Rachel Maddow makes me happy.

There has to be a story here

I just don't know what it is.

Try captioning it for me.

In other news, I have turned into one of those people who walk into parking signs while dicking around with my smart phone. Yay me!

Chosen

This (MP3) has become my favorite piece of music to listen to as of late.

It was composed by Robert Duncan for Buffy the Vampire Slayer's Seventh Season

With a Tie..

You asked for it, you got it...

Just in case you were unclear where I stood

As if I needed a sign...


But it is important to say sometimes.

Books and Such

Look at these books.












Now, do you really need to wonder about why I am not dating?

Sartorial Question

For the last couple of years, my basic wardrobe has been a black v-neck sweater with a t-shirt underneath and such...

To switch it up, I would wear a shirt and tie, with jeans (doing the personal assistant thing) and I liked that look.

Last night, my housemate said that she prefers the tie look.

So...would that be something I should try?

Do I need to provide visual reference?

Dreams

My series of weird dreams has continued. They are still in the same vein but just a bit more violent in a bit more scary and I don't know what to do.

Consequently I'm sleeping like a baby. I am up every three hours and I messed myself twice.

Fun stuff!