Holiday Lights in the Park

Predictably, I hate this. The waste, the light pollution, the cars, the cliches.

And it starts today.

Enjoy it folks, I am sure some of you think it is a grand idea.

And now for something completely different

I had an excellent Thanksgiving.

It started with the Turkey Trot, which I was happy with and ended with an Arlo Guthrie-esque Thanksgiving dinner that couldn't be beat.

Today, as I was running errands around the metro area, (and no, there was no Black Friday Shopping), I was listening to Lifter (especially Big & Tall(MP3)) and realized that even more than usual I was turning into a cliche.

Remember that scene from The Big Chill where Kevin Kline's character says, "There is no other music," in reference to the music from the late '60s? Yeah, that's what I was thinking about this album and then I remembered that this album is fifteen years old.

I am an old, and I will just claim it as a mantle of pride.

Now, I am enjoying a cup of coffee, still listening to Lifter, and thinking about what a joy my son is. @PVH1976 has remarked that he is a little clone of me, and I saw it yesterday...the way he talks to think, but considers the words he uses, the way his stories go on, and how he thinks through problems, rather than rushing right in (rest well, gentle reader, he does share some of my good qualities too) and it made me so proud to be his dad. I do have one fear related to this, and I may share it, but let me just put it this way...my fear is that there is going to be a situation where I put someone's jaw through the back to their skull because of their attitude towards him.

Happy Thanksgiving

This is what I am thankful for...




A child who loves the written word.

I remember being young and being engrossed by books to the point where I would disconnect from everything around me.

And I meant every word

I wrote this the other night...

I may be pathetic, damaged, and a man child, but I am sincere in my words.

I am well aware how this looks, and the further mockery it may engender, but...yeah. That isn't important.

JMFJT,
I love you and I care.
I am sorry that you don't think this is going to work out but...I do.
We have both been burned, we both carry our damage with us, and I think we both want each other.
I will leave you alone until you reach out to me but I will be waiting for you, even if you choose not to wait for me.
You keep mentioning my singledom and that it is what I want, but that is far from the case. I wanted to remain single because I didn't want these difficulties, and I didn't want to be responsible for disappointing other people or causing them pain.
And I met you, and I resisted, not because I didn't want you, but because I didn't want to fail...you & myself...and then have the whole concept of relationships fucked for me forever.
But I fell in love with you; hard, fast & completely.
And...I believe that you love me.
So...if you want me, I am here. If you don't or this is too much work, I understand.
Love you,
A Mistake

Owning my cynicism

I have had this alert in my Google Calendar for years...





What does it say about me?

Recently, my gut has failed me but my trust in the opinions of others, with the exception of technical issues, has not been stellar either.

What is a cynic to do?

Maybe it is remove myself from the discourse entirely.